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Sunday, December 31, 2006

fiRSt Post iN hOustOn (PaRt 3)

i'm so... lagging behind in the updating of my blog.

waking up the second morn did not make me feel better as i was still feeling the effects of jet lag (prob bcoz i did not slp the nite before..)

uncle alan accompanied aunt jac to the doc and uncle howe yong went to work while i stayed at home wif aunt mabel and the 2 rascals to watch "Spongebob Squarepants"! (my fav cartoon!) *lol..

when they returned, we headed to home depot to shop for Snowy's fence (Joel's pet rabbit) and other possible furniture aunt jac needed. this place is juz like a giant warehouse selling anything from furniture to tools to d.i.y stuffs. watever u needed, this store has got it all. i'm impressed.


the front

inside the store

another view of the store

they even have a very big gardening section! look at all the flowers..

an interesting statue tt reminded me of her

my cousin, joel posing as a glass cleaner in linen 'N things

taken at Best Buy (which sold all the latest electronic gadgets including PS 3!)

After tt, we moved on to Katy Mills. uncle howe yong and the 2 rascals went to books-a-million. uncle alan, aunt mabel and i went shopping at various outlets like timberland, nautica, GAP, Polo Ralph Lauren etc. their mall is so cool! everything frm the layout to the clothes to the food is juz so nice! *heez.. headed home for our 2nd steamboat dinner.

balloons we saw at katy mills

the timberland shop over here


we used to have this in s'pore but not anymore *sobz..


mUttOns bLeAtEd at... 12/31/2006 01:15:00 PM


fiRSt Post iN hOustOn (PaRt 2)

arrived at LA airport.

to my horror, the immigration queue was freaking LONG! and it took me 1 whole hr to clear the customs! fortunately, the immigration officer was v friendly and tt made me feel much better.

but, i still had a plane to catch! *gasps..

mum told me tt LA airport is small. unexpectedly, it was much bigger than she had said. had a hard time finding my terminal and the place to check in for my continental flight. *pants..

i barely managed to make it on time and i was so worried that i'll have to book another flight to Houston instead.

soon, i arrived at IAH and there i saw my Aunt Jac, Uncle Howe Yong, Joel, Uncle Alan, Aunt Mabel and Anthea much to my relief.

we spent 1 hr on the road bcoz uncle howe yong got lost on the road *lol.. had steamboat for dinner. suffered from jet lag and got knocked out pretty early.

realised i took some photos as i left my hse for the airport so decided to post some over here for your viewing pleasure.


see the 1000 pieces puzzle on my table? it says "ni xiang jia ma?" (do you miss home?)

a pic of my hall frm the front door

a scenic view from my bed room (background pasir ris)

my front door


mUttOns bLeAtEd at... 12/31/2006 12:30:00 PM


fiRSt Post iN hOustOn (PaRt 1)

for those eagerly awaiting this entry.. it's finally here!

yes! i'm finally here in texas, houston posting my experience over here for the past 2 days. as it is too long, i'll divide it into 3 parts.

i'm keying this entry as I'm transiting at Narita Airport, Tokyo. unfortunately, i'm unable to access their wireless network bcoz i need a user id and password (aka Singtel, QMax and iCell).
it's 5pm in tokyo here (s'pore 4pm) but it's so freaking DARK here liaoz. juz like it's past 8 in s'pore. *surprised

the flight here was not good. caught a cold and kept sneezing all the way here. and i still have a runny nose now. *sniffs..

special thx to all who came to send me off today. nai nai, ye ye, mum, dad, michelle, brian, liwei, ah min, isaac (emcom), qixiang and his gf. realli appreciate the tot.

i forgive those who wanted to come but overslpt de. *lol.. you noe who u r.. *haha
the tot of my nai nai, mum and dad tearing is still etched deeply in my mind. esp my dad. i find it hard to believe tt he act cried. i guess the strongest person oso has a vulnerable side. *sobz..
dun worri larz.. i'll try my best over here. hopefully my room mates r nice pple so tt i can study in peace (when i need to..)

somehow this still feels like a dream to me.. i still can't bring myself to accept the fact tt i'm about to start sch in US soon. *sighz..

i can't afford to look back le.. though i can't c the road ahead.. but i'll juz have to stride forward bravely and overcome wat is yet to come..

below are some photos that i took wif my family members and friends b4 i took off. and exclusive photos tt i took while transiting at Narita Airport.

li wei, me and brian

ah min and me

joane, qi xiang, me and issac

my beloved nai nai and me

my ye ye and me

my parents and me!

me and my dear family!

can you see the name of this duty-free shop? fa so la! *lol..

the stuffs being sold at the duty free shop


a special bin tt differentiates trash

a map showing a section of Narita Airport (which is quite big!)

the plane tt brought me to Narita and to LA


my jap cuisine dinner (which was damn nice!) *smilez..



mUttOns bLeAtEd at... 12/31/2006 05:20:00 AM


Thursday, December 28, 2006

wAt cAN't u lEavE bEhINd ?

for me.. it's gotta be her..

haven been blogging the past few days bcoz too bz wif packing my luggage.

haven been slpin well the past few weeks. and it's been getting worse as the day drew closer. only slpt 2-3 hrs a day. tonite as i countdown to my departure (currently 4 more hrs) , i did not slp a wink.

she was pissed when i told her i was in the cinema. i noe i shldnt b watching movies at this time. but tot of entertaining my frens for the last time b4 i fly. realised my mistake and repented.

realli appreciate the tot of u buying another phonecard to call me. but duno y our call ended tt way. if i cld.. i wld wish tt we can talk forever.. there's so much i wanna talk to u bout. and i'm sure u've lots of thingz to talk to me bout too! but you had to "kup" the phone.. *haiz..

thx asyran and allan for spending your evening wif me. special thx to allan for dinner and for sending me home by cab (though he stays in AMK!) *grateful..
















thx to ah min for spending her afternoon wif me and lugging the paper bag full of vcds/dvds. unfortunately i'm unable to burn the vcds. *sad..

a big big sorri to those few jc buddies who made an effort to organise a gathering for me at simpang tonite. unfortunately i was unable to join u guys and cldn't contact u guys bcoz hp batt flat. but a big thx for the tot! as a consolation, we can chill when i return during the summers! =)

as for the remaining of my frens.. i'll miss all of you! the times we had together will always be etched in my mind for this gruelling period. meantime do pray for me and keep reading my blog. do tag me when u drop by k? take care u pple out there!

s'pore muttons is bout to b exported to us.. *ciaoz..


mUttOns bLeAtEd at... 12/28/2006 05:20:00 AM


Sunday, December 24, 2006

aLL sEEms tOO sOOn..

Recalling the period from July till now, everything seems to be in a whirl.. *giddy..

The job attachment, followed by the first interview (which I didnt expect to get through!) then the second interview (which I tot i had screwed up BIG TIME!), the rush to get all the necessary documents, visa cum passport and finally down to the past few days that I have been packing away. Everything seemed like yesterday.. *whoosh..

I was thinking.. Maybe even after I had graduated, I will still be thking that I am living in a dream..

But, reality is such. There are so much things I can't bear to leave behind.. *sobz.. That is why it's not surprising why I have not been able to sleep the past few days..

I duno wat life there will be like. But I trust that God has everything planned for me and I pray that God will preserve me till the day of his coming..

This is the last weekend I'll be spending over in Singapore.

Wish me luck over there.. *cheers!


mUttOns bLeAtEd at... 12/24/2006 02:24:00 AM


Friday, December 22, 2006

dIsaPPoIntInG

Finished writing the letter and the card attached to the present. Juz hope tt she can draw strength from these and be happy. *smilez..

But my headache lies in who shld I get to pass her the present? *haiz..

Aniwae went for nasi lemak at Changi Village wif Jon and Khas juz now. Unfortunately, Jon gotta head home early so we ended our nite prematurely much to Khas and my disappointment. But Jon was so nice to let me drive my way home from Pasir Ris! *grateful..

So, tonite was not tt bad after all.

Aniwae, I guess we can have a final gathering wif the matts, david and the 3 of us some time next week. *heez..


mUttOns bLeAtEd at... 12/22/2006 03:33:00 AM


Thursday, December 21, 2006

PrOuD Of U!

It's only another 1 month b4 we can celebrate our 2 years anniversary.

Unfortunately on tt day, I won't be in Singapore to celebrate tt day wif her. *haiz..

I know tt she will be worried if she sees the time I post this entry.

But I can't slp..

And I just finished watching all my church's latest videos! *phew..

I juz wanna say here..

Tt I'm proud of her..for whatever she has done or has achieved.. *smilez..

When you read this entry..don't be sad k? Muz smile more! :) No matter what..I'll always be there for you should you need me! *smilez..


mUttOns bLeAtEd at... 12/21/2006 04:15:00 AM


wAstE Of tImE

I realli hate it when I let the wrong head do the thinking! *haiz..

Reached Raffles Mrt at 1. Met up with Soke Hwa and Lina. Had lunch with them and Issac. JJ dropped by a while later.

After which, I went window shopping along Orchard Road. Supposed to meet Jia Liang kor to install some programs into my computer. But changed my mind when I realised that it'll be kinda inconvenient to go from Orchard.

She called me and we chatted for a while because overseas calls are real ex!

Realli missed a lot. She cried while talking to me because she felt very lonely over there. I felt very helpless and can understand her misery. I comforted her saying to wait for my present and letter to her. *heez..

Honestly, I have not been sleeping recently. I can't seem to fall aslp these days. And I hate to waste my time! *argh.. What is done is done.. *sighz..

Just hope tt she will be fine there and tt God will bless her and watch over her. *smilez..


mUttOns bLeAtEd at... 12/21/2006 12:13:00 AM


Wednesday, December 20, 2006

sIgnInG tHe dEEd

Mum took time off from work and Dad put aside his appointments.

It is for the event due to happen this Tuesday afternoon.

This event will potentially make or break my future. And it is all down to this moment.. *gasps..

After signing the deed, we headed for lunch at People's Park. Had yong tau foo from my mum's favourite stall in People's Park. Decided to walk around Chinatown. As usual, the rain (which has been on-going for 3 WHOLE DAYS already!) pissed me off. *haiz..

Travelled to Bishan to meet Qi Xiang to get some stuffs from him.

Headed for The Chevrons in Melvin's car to attend Ben's birthday party. Though it's freaking far, but went because it should be the last time I am seeing them before I fly to the US. Managed to catch up with Alex and Melvin whom I haven seen for quite some time liaoz.. The food was not bad and we had fun chatting away. Xuan was quite dulan about being caught in the rain and the venue being so far from home (not forgetting the pathetic bus service..) *lol..

Chatted with Xuan at KFC as he was still hungry while the others headed home. Continued talking while on the train home. I realised something. It's been a very long time since we chatted like this. I think the last time was outside the Trek shop along Tanglin road on one of our nite cycling trips. I actually miss those times. *sobz..

A lot people have asked me about what is going to happen when I'm away. Seriously, I don't have an answer. All I know is tt we do love each other very much and am very sure of each other. So, I'm leaving it all into God's hands and I trust that he will eventually still bring us back together. That is why I always reply them confidently that "What will be will be." I have confidence in her and myself! *heez..


mUttOns bLeAtEd at... 12/20/2006 01:57:00 AM


Monday, December 18, 2006

caN't sLp..

I just came back from breakfast with Hui Min.

Realli nice of her to pick me up and send me home after breakfast though I can still make my own way home. Realli appreciated it! *thanks ah min..

We went to the famous 24hr soya bean & you tiao stall at Geylang. It was my first time there. But the you tiao tasted bitter and was cold. And the soya bean drink was bland and diluted. Overall, it was a disappointment.

It was a spur of the moment decision.

Hope Hui Min gets some good rest after fetching her dad home. *heez..


mUttOns bLeAtEd at... 12/18/2006 09:44:00 AM


sUndaYs

As usual, it poured heavily yesterday. For the whole day, all I heard was "Boom! Pitter patter pitter patter.." *yawnz..

It was 10 and I was almost there. Suddenly the rain started pouring down on me. I had no choice but to run for the nearest shelter! *yikes.. When I reached my church, I was almost drenched. *haiz..

I sat there and wonder. A tot struck me! It was as if like what Grandpa said. "If you want to be kept alive, you must head towards NTC!" All of a sudden, it seems like God was pouring down his wrath on the degenerate human civilisation while we were kept safe inside the Ark!

After service, I discussed with Yu Ying Ah Yi about my departure to Texas. I was worried about bread breaking there and there will be no sermons over there except through listening to Grandpa's messages. She also encouraged me to write very often to Grandpa because I need to link with him to remain strong. I felt greatly comforted after listening to her.

I was caught in the rain once agin after leaving church. My dad and sis had to meet me at the Tampines Town Council building to shelter me. *heez..

I slept thru the afternoon as it poured away outside. *snores..

She called me at nite and we chatted. I always love hearing her voice. Especially when I dun get to hear it that often anymore. *wonders..


mUttOns bLeAtEd at... 12/18/2006 06:07:00 AM


Sunday, December 17, 2006

sEarch 4 bEnsOn's bDaE PresEnt

I guess it's the time of the year again. Not Christmas, the season of giving and sharing. But my fellow ex-OETI mate announcing his birthday again. It seems like he holds his birthday every year and never fails to "inform" all of us 'bout his bdae. *haiz..
This year is no exception. So Asyran, Auntie and I scoured Suntec and Marina Square in search of his present. As you pple noe.. it's not an easy task buying a birthday present. And it becomes extremely difficult when you are shopping for a present for a person who has expensive taste and weird fashion sense (I see you guys nodding away..) That is exactly my point! Finally, we decided to get him a white Myuk bag, that we felt was nice (especially on our budget!) *lol..
Apparently, she tried to call me today but I think I rejected her calls unknowingly. *sad.. My mum only told me 'bout her calling for me when I reach home. So sorri.. I didnt noe you were looking for me. I oso wanna talk to you badly! *sobz..


mUttOns bLeAtEd at... 12/17/2006 02:19:00 AM


Saturday, December 16, 2006

a liL sUrprIse fOr hEr

Tried calling SL jie the whole day but I can't get her. It seems like she has left for Bintan *gasps..

Paid my Grandmother a visit today because she had a fall recently while cleaning the house. I was worried so decided to drop by since I was free today. *heartbroken..

After that, I went to Century Square and Tampines Mall in hope to get the slippers she wanted. But it seems like after looking around Singapore, I still can't find her size for the pair of Billabong slippers *haiz.. In the end, I opted for the pair of brown Ripples slippers (though she has a lot of brown slippers) that she took a fancy to a few months back. This will be my lil present for her before I leave.

Spent the evening wrapping up this present. But I am now deciding whether to pass it to her parents and get them to bring it to her? Or to just leave it with them till she returns? *haiz.. But I think she would prefer the former *heez..

I gotta start packing tom le..Realised there's a hell lot of things to bring over when I listed down my stuffs to bring over. *ciaoz..


mUttOns bLeAtEd at... 12/16/2006 01:16:00 AM


Thursday, December 14, 2006

rAInY dAYs

I HATE RAINING DAYS!!! *argh.. It started pouring heavily as I was about to leave home for work today. Even with an umbrella, I still cannot prevent my pants from getting wet. That is why it feels weird having a laptop on a pair of wet pants on the train. *haiz.. It is always this time of the year that I dread because it is super xianz when you are wet from the rain. And the rain juz douses whatever happy feeling I have. Think about it..When is there a time where people who are outdoors will love the rain? Be it a BBQ party, a tennis game or even shopping at Orchard Road. It juz sux totally when the sky turns dark and starts to pour to its heart's content.

I guess the only time when people love the rain is when they are at home. The cool weather just makes you feel like snoozing away esp after a heavy meal. *haha..
But.. I still HATE RAINY DAYS!!!

Got my visa from the US embassy yest. So, it seems I'm almost set to head for Texas. I was almost late for the collection of my visa. Luckily, the bus driver of 123 was super "zai" and breezed past the heavy traffic along Orchard Road. *phew..

Decided to drop my Bras Brasah after collecting my visa to see if the Esprit watch that I wanted has arrived. She says it looks very nice on me and insisted that I should get it. I share the same sentiments as I do find the design unique too. The retail price of the watch was $209. Guess how much I bargained for? In the end, I got the watch for $162!!! A whopping $47 cut off the original price! That is a 22.5% discount! *haha.. I think the salesgirl oso pek chek. *evil laughter.. In the end, I really felt I got this watch at a steal and felt damn happy bout it. But, the sad thing is that she won't be able to come back in time to see me wearing this watch b4 I fly off. *haiz..

I intend to have a lil surprise for her when she returns. I'm still planning.. *hmmz..

Hope that this lil surprise will at least cheer her up a lil during my absence.. *heez..


mUttOns bLeAtEd at... 12/14/2006 02:50:00 PM


Wednesday, December 13, 2006

fiRSt bLoG iN Mths..

I've decided to blog while in the train on my way to office. As I was walking to the mrt station juz now, something suddenly struck me. I saw 2 gers (ur typical teenage ger larz..) asking people to donate to some charity organisation. I realised that it is always this period of the year or shld I say school holidays that these teenagers will FLOOD shopping areas or places with a lot of people to ask for donations.

I recalled applying for a similar job during my JC days but they told me that my pay is a percentage of the amount I had collected. That is to say..If I spent more effort going around asking more people to donate more money, my pay would be higher. The reason I raised this issue is because I feel that asking for donations or any form of charity work should come from the heart with the sincere thought of helping those less fortunate. I understand that these organisations will argue their stand that they are juz paying these teenagers for their job. However, it seems like these "charity organiations" ( i decline to comment about their crediblity) are inculcating the wrong values about charity work. I feel that this will greatly impact society. You can say that it will turn "colder" as people will lack compassion and empathy for those less fortunate. I feel that the Gahmen shld educate these budding pillars of the nation. It is no use training them to be "super-machines" that can drive our economy, but they lack the inner moral values which are very improtant. We can already see that the youths of today are becoming more and more materialistic, we must do something to stop this trend from rising. The only way is through education of the public. The Gahmen always like to have so many campaign this campaign that, so maybe they can have a campaign to care for the less fortunate. I would say the 6hrs compulsory community service is a good start, but there is more room for improvement.

She is scheduled to leave for Taiwan today. *haiz.. I guess I'll miss her..lots..since she will be back in time to send me off. But I understand why she has to go there, it's for the vision. In fact, I even encouraged her to go earlier. I duno how I'm feeling rite now. I'm confused and lost, but at the same time excited and to a certain extent happy. Weird rite? But Kenneth mentioned it to me b4 le so I guess I understand this feeling. I'll be getting my visa tomorrow so that leaves only the packing to be done. Aniwae it's been a long time since I blogged and I find that my mind is getting a little rusty le. I gotta start studying soon because I can feel my brain degenerating (no thanks to NS life). So, I guess I'll try to blog here as much as possible when I'm there in Texas. Meantime, that is all for now.. *ciaoz..


mUttOns bLeAtEd at... 12/13/2006 12:48:00 AM


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