MY ILLUMINATED LIFE;
Friday, April 13, 2007
SunShiNe AftEr rAiN
i apologise for the lousy title. but i can't realli find a title to describe "the worst is over." aniwae it's ironic to be typing this entry on a rainy day bcoz it's not sunny outside. *lol..
aniwae it's finally the end of this torturous and gruelling week. survived the stats homework, studying for history test, doing my powerpoint, practising my presentation, confirming my flight details, making payments etc etc. i'm glad it's over. now i noe taking 6 classes is definately not easy. and i mite be even taking 7 classes next semester. *sighz..
my stupid com yest nite got some stupid problem. i can't raise or lower the volume. when i d-click the volume icon, an error message pops up telling me that there are no active mixer device available. the funny thing is that there is still sound when my com starts up or shuts down, or when there is an error message. but when i watch movie or clips.. nothing. *zzz..
tried everything i could. device manager, task manager, system restore and even the recovery disc doesn't seem to help bcoz the problem will juz come back after awhile. *haiz.. does anyone have a solution to this damn problem?
meantime, there's a huge reward for me surviving this week. that is my aunt, uncle, cousin and I will be touring the hill countries of san antonio (as quoted from aunt jac), visit the factory outlets (fashion stores) in san marcos and seaworld! simply cant wait for them to get here now. so am keeping myself occupied while waiting. juz hope that the rain outside will stop soon and we'll have good weather! *heez..
mUttOns bLeAtEd at... 4/13/2007 11:13:00 PM
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
hEctiC hEctiC
juz came back frm library after spending the past 5 hours there.
finished my stats homework which is due tom morning and read thru 3/4 of my history text!
now it's 1.30am and i still have work to do! *sighz..
this is the result of going to my aunt jac's place. not that i'm complaining. i love to go there especially the food! but juz that the environment is not conducive for me to do my work due to the lack of my self-discipline. so i gotta rush to finish all these stuffs before school tom.
as a matter of fact, i juz came back frm houston today. reason is that ben decided to stay for one more day over easter so i have no choice but to stay over at her place for one more day too. but that only means i have one less day to do my work.
i still have.. powerpoint slides to do, presentation to practice, biology lab procedures to read, history test to study, air ticket to confirm, psychology notes to finish copying, english quizzes to do and the list goes on... *sighz..
seriously, if i can survive this week. i would have survive the worst of this semester. *prays..
mUttOns bLeAtEd at... 4/10/2007 02:05:00 PM
Thursday, April 05, 2007
wEAk
was on my way to get dinner yest and this tot sudd popped into my mind.
when did i become so weak? *stunned..
weak in the sense of intelligence, awareness, character, mindset, etc etc relative to my age. basically the overall development of the whole package, me.
my tots went back to the times in secondary school. had lesser friends but i was definately much stronger for my age then. i have more friends and a ger i love but somehow i can't help but feel that i've grown weaker. maybe some of you will say that i should quit comparing. but it's not. it's juz wat i ask of myself.. which there probably is no end.
i'm not complaining bout my present life. i'm probably dissatisfied at myself ba. i feel that the rate of my growth seems to be slowing down. i noe i've real high expectations of myself. i want to be good in everything ranging from studies, to sports, and to intra- & inter-personal relationships.
i can't help thinking bout those old chinese martial arts films where the man will leave his family or even kill his family just to attain the attain the peak in martial arts. it seems pretty much so since i was very much a loner throughout my secondary school and early jc years, and the growth rate then seemed much higher than now.
can one realli attain "this peak" when there are no distractions? *sighz..
mUttOns bLeAtEd at... 4/05/2007 07:35:00 AM
